I saw God today, in letting go.
I was reading about a woman the other day.
She shared a story,
a story where she just knew it was God, working in the details.
I have experienced those times in my life too, where God was there working behind the scenes, creating something beautiful. As I read her story, I thought about how it had been some time since I had experienced God moving in this way. And as my week unraveled and some pieces of my life with it, I began to see some possible reasons for my lack of seeing.
What I saw this week instead of seeing God:
I saw myself trying to piece my life together.
I saw myself trying to orchestrate my children’s lives.
I saw myself carrying things that are not mine to carry.
I saw a week filled with anxiousness and worry.
I have often struggled with trust and letting go when my children were younger. Yet somehow it was easier because they were still physically dependent on me. But now as my children grow older and the need to let go is growing greater I find myself trying to hold on even tighter.
When I instead looked to God this week, this is what He showed me:
I cannot see Him when I do not leave any room in my life for Him.
When I try to orchestrate life myself, I have no need for Him.
This does not mean that I let go and let fate decide my life. But I can let go and let God decide. He knows me better than I know myself, the intimate details of my life. If He could create the universe, I think He can “handle” my life and the lives of my loved ones. And more than “handle them, He creates something beautiful.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5,6
Is there an area you need to let go of, to make more room for God?