About once a year or so, I seem to journey down the same path. The “what is my purpose, and what am I doing with my life?” path. I am not sure why I never seem to find the answer, and these questions reoccur yearly. I often blame it on lack of a specific talent or calling, and sometimes I end up complaining to God, asking “Why couldn’t you have created me with a specific gift like the artist who I work for or my husband with his gift of teaching?”
Thankfully, I do not seem to be alone in my questioning. There are myriads of books and courses out there covering this exact topic, and many of them I have read. The words and thoughts at times were helpful. A thought or sentence stuck with me and I found peace and contentment for some time. Eventually though that nagging little question would make its way back into my head again.
The other week as these questions were once again swirling around in my thoughts, I read a verse in Proverbs, one I had read many times before.
“The Lord has made everything for His own purposes….” – Proverbs 16:4
His purposes vs. mine.
Maybe it is not a matter of finding my passion, narrowing it down, or even asking the question, “what is my purpose?”
God has not made me for my plans.
If I do insist on finding answers, I can instead ask the questions, “What are your purposes God, in general and for me personally?” What would you have me to today? How are your purposes for this day similar or different to mine?
These two views may not seem so different, but for me it is a shift from figuring out my life and what fulfills me to focusing on God and what is important to Him. This is where I find fulfillment, this is where I find rest.
I saw God today, in His way not mine.
What do His purposes look like for you today?